Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Well I can't wait I'm going to Germany on the 18th yup wont be back till the 26th. I get to see my family who I haven't seen in like 6 years. In fact the cool thing is it's my gang. Yup my adopted gang member. Well I mean we are a gang. But all of us are adopted get it now. Lets see it has Filipinos,Korean, and yes us Panamians.
But yea we have been split up for a while you see. Now that we live near each other we can go back to our old ways. The we can't get back to far. Some of us are trying hard for a new life. You see. But yea. Us chick crew 4 life never part. We still have things up our sleeves. Yea lets see I had about 4 of us in OK and 3 in Germany. And well the rest in college. Oh wait 6 of us in OK. Well you wanna who the leader is don't you. Hahahaha I can't tell you that. You might be one of enemies.
Let me just say she jus finished High school. hahahah. But im serious about our gang.
Yea I can't wait to go see them. I know they are happy I'm coming down. Why you ask well I'm important. We are all. Its just that I have done more stuff for the gang they most. So there now you have it. Its out in the open. Oh yea I belong to more than just one gang you see. But only I know that.
i miss what i used to be ;
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
I never thought that life would be so hard.
But then again I should of known. All my life I got things handed to me.
But now that wont happen. I have to work for what I want. Working at the
Bowling center has taught me that the hard way. I wish I had known sooner.
There are something that are on my mind now. Like why do people have to be
depended on someone. I can understand a new born baby. But now as you get older you
can't do that. You have to stand on your own two feet. I know I use to depend on my mom or
Boyfriends to get me through even friends. But now not anymore. The only person I depend on is me and God. For with out his help I don't know where I'd be. Well I know and its not good.
I also hate being looked over. What I mean is hit on by guys yes guys.Well i'm sure I don't want girls to hit on me. Its nice but No.LOL. Back to what I was saying It's like you tell them No you don't like them. And yet they don't get it why is that. Someone pleas answer that for me. I have this guy write. Well he comes every morning to talk to me matter how many times I have to get back to work he wont go. Plus he stare at me 24/7 it's freaks. I wish I was very ugly I'm not saying I'm hot or anything. It's just that this guy and many more wont leave me alone. Maybe if I had zits and bad breath they would go LOL. But hey I don't mind being their friends. That's all I need now. But yea I need a better life.
i miss what i used to be ;
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Standing by my little light house.
It gives me comfort.
I could stand all night and day and watch the light go round and round.
I have always wondhere.
But only that it's light guides me at sea.
er who comes here.
Maybe a writer, Poet, or a couple.
This little light house has history.
It has been through a lot.
Its seen things come and go.
I will never know for sure who else comes
i miss what i used to be ;
The wind blows all around me.
I can feel.
I can smell the salty air.
I can smell.
I feel happy and I feel sad.
I can't hear I can't see what lies a head of me.
For i'm blind and deafth.
I am a person just you like you.
Word can not express what I go through but I live.
I know were I am. I'm near the Shore.
One touch and smell tells me all.
i miss what i used to be ;
Monday, December 05, 2005
Mommy why is the sky blue?
Mommy why do birds fly?
Mommy where do babies come from?
Mommy I'm not tired.
Mommy do I have to bush my teeth?
Mommy I have to go potty.
Mommy are you mad at me?
Mommy i'm sorry.
Mommy will you come with me.
Mommy I'm scared.
Mommy i love you forever and ever.
Mom can i go out to night?
Mom why do you have to be so mean!
Mom I hate you so much.
Mom just once listen to me.
Mom meet my boyfriend/girlfriend.
Mommy don't leave me.
Mommy your little girl is here now.
Mommy i told you i love you.
Mommy Thank you for raising me.
Just a every day life that a mom gose through with kids.
i miss what i used to be ;
Thursday, December 01, 2005
I'm starting to lose someone I love
and they don't even know it.
I never thought I could love this deep.
when I first saw him my heart knew that
he was the one.
Being far away makes things hard.
I'm not saying that I want to quit.
Cuz I don't, I just want an answer
that's all.
I guess it's better now if he dose move on.
I just want him to tell me.
I don't want to be old and never find someone.
Maybe im going on about this all wrong.
Maybe he is too busy to write me and call.
I'm starting to lose someone and he doesn't even know it.
*Many girls go through this. They think that because their guy doesn't write means something.
that's not always true. I know I think that some times. But you have to be able to trust him. Same
with the guys you have to trust her hope your guy can tell you what's up. Cuz its better you know now then find out later. I hope you are able to tell him stuff in your life. Like what's wrong or what you have been up too. That one thing I have trouble with. I trust my guy its just hard for me to tell him what's wrong. Don't lose faith work it out.
i miss what i used to be ;
