Tuesday, December 13, 2005
I never thought that life would be so hard.
But then again I should of known. All my life I got things handed to me.
But now that wont happen. I have to work for what I want. Working at the
Bowling center has taught me that the hard way. I wish I had known sooner.
There are something that are on my mind now. Like why do people have to be
depended on someone. I can understand a new born baby. But now as you get older you
can't do that. You have to stand on your own two feet. I know I use to depend on my mom or
Boyfriends to get me through even friends. But now not anymore. The only person I depend on is me and God. For with out his help I don't know where I'd be. Well I know and its not good.
I also hate being looked over. What I mean is hit on by guys yes guys.Well i'm sure I don't want girls to hit on me. Its nice but No.LOL. Back to what I was saying It's like you tell them No you don't like them. And yet they don't get it why is that. Someone pleas answer that for me. I have this guy write. Well he comes every morning to talk to me matter how many times I have to get back to work he wont go. Plus he stare at me 24/7 it's freaks. I wish I was very ugly I'm not saying I'm hot or anything. It's just that this guy and many more wont leave me alone. Maybe if I had zits and bad breath they would go LOL. But hey I don't mind being their friends. That's all I need now. But yea I need a better life.
i miss what i used to be ;
